In the beginning

My beloved daughter Lueza died on April 4, 2011. She was born on October 2, 1994. Her brain was injured during her birth. It was the birth from hell. Broke my water with a long hook. Pitocin. Epidural. On oxygen lying on my left side. And then something went horribly wrong and she was wrenched out by forceps barely alive. Emergency team from NICU was called at some point and they intubated her and took her away. My husband and I were left alone in a bloody room. A fancy private hospital on 5th Avenue in New York City.